Truth ? What is it ?

Hello again friends. it has been a long time since i found myself writing again , more so because of lack of events which needed elaboration , all through these days of absence. this post is more of a questionare , than a simple read, hope this appeals to your intellect.

Firstly and for mostly i don't mean to hurt the sentiments of my readers - religious, social or personal, these are just mere questions that i often find asking myself and i'm sure many of us do, or maybe don't which makes me a lunatic in that case but whatever,  lets begin. shall we ?

q.) is life without a meaning ? doing something good for ourselves or anybody else , does it really matter, when in the end we all live on this tiny little insignificant spec in the universe for a infinitesimally small amount of time on the scale of the cosmos , where birth and death are the only permanent truth in our lives which marks the beginning and the end of our consciousness ? or what importance does life have, if everyone we know or we don't know is going to die anyhow ? sure some would say to live happy lives , to leave behind achievements and memories to make the world a better place .. but lets face it, how many of us are actually doing that ? and no matter what you do for yourself and the world , will it last forever , would everybody remember you and your achievements when you're gone ? if the answer is no or maybe, then whats the whole point of living, if the body is just a vessel drifting towards its inevitable end ? to balance all these irregularities as many as 5 religions preach the institution of rebirth, but lets not go into the religious playground just yet.. i am looking for an answer which is practical and supported by reason a common man can understand and contemplate with...

q.) if we have established an answer for the above question lets begin with the second one . we all have our religions which we follow, ok some of us can be atheists too but lets rise above what we believe in to what we see , hear , touch and learn from our limited existence .. personally i have had my spiritual ups and downs and what i found was that the less i doubt in his power , the more i believe in him , the more satisfied and at peace i find myself in, but thats just me and it could be purely psychological.

so the question is ...what is religion ? is it something that unifies people ? or provides them and the loneliest of all people a sense of belonging ? or is it something that provides explanations to the question of existence ? does it keep us from becoming animals by checking our limits ? prevents the world as we know it from breaking down to a mad max sort of realm ? do we even need a religion, if we all become learned and civilized enough to follow our own rules ? if so then wouldn't that be a religion in itself ? moreover why do we need to establish the notion that our religion or faiths is superior to all others when its just "faith" ? again i am looking for a practical and simple opinion which is generalized taking account of a majority of people not just a single person or sect... !

q.)if we have established the importance or the reason to religion my next question is about acceptance.

how are we supposed to accept ourselves ? is it the process of suppressing the feeling of wanting something bigger for yourselves ? is it to establish an inferiority complex ? or being content with what you have, even if its not enough ? is it about setting lower but more realistic ambitions for yourself ? if so wont it limit your potential and prevent you from pushing yourself over the limit to that point where you are capable of getting what you want and be who you want to be ?

q.) lastly the question that screws the most with my mind.

what is existence ? who made us ? who made the people who made us ? who made the entire universe ? who made the people who made the entire universe , and who made them ? what is life ? why is it so ? why are we here and not there ? what is this whole thing about ? whats the grand design and who made it and why ?

these are some of the basic questions that i have been pondering on for decades , it feels better to let them go , i could have easily gone to yahoo answers and seen the replies but i wanted to write here on my own space, not just to feel important but to ease out my mind with people i really know about . its not that i know every single one of you who is reading this but i know most of the readers and trace their thought process . again i am looking for an answer encouraged by reason not by anger .

i have tried to the best of my efforts not to overrule anybody's sentiments even now if somebody feels hurt or angered , i am sorry friend but i am not sorry !

peace out \v/

- Abhishek

End of an Era...!

So the thing i hated the most all these years has finally come to an end now, well for most us...yes, college is now officially over...to those who made it , you have my heartiest congrats...for those who are stuck like me ; hang in there friends, its not the end of the world, and logic says that we really know our shit straighter specially after spending days or even months studying the same subject at least twice...

i see everybody feels like they'd actually feel blue about this place and though your feelings have my utmost respect but i beg to differ..

an education on its basic level means you get to learn something, you get to know something...but a technical education should mean that you know something and you could apply the same thing to innovate and build something new or more efficient...but how many of us can actually do that ? how many of us have had a real technical education ? What kind of teachings are you gonna take to your work ?...and what percentage of your work would actually contribute to the technological advancement of the country and innovation in the society as a whole ??

having said that, i really don't wanna blog bash or discourage anyone , i'm just putting forward some assertions for which you should find reasons to, yourself..

the environment and the system we came from ,forced us to learn it, write it and finally forget it...maybe it was all in the system, maybe you couldn't do anything about it back then...but its all yesterday's news now, today you can start a fresh and write your own story with a new pen...from now on whatever you do and whatever you learn would be on a practical basis , the future of this country depends on its youth and its you, all of you...you have the power to change, you have the power to innovate...so try and complain less and make the most of it ...!

My opinion and a sincere request to all those who are now engineers and heading slowly towards their workplaces, is

you are engineers now , the development and the continuation of technology and innovation is in your hands now , know yourself, your importance, your role, be responsible and always remember to have some fun from time to time ;)

well thats all for now friends, sorry for having hurt anybody's sentiments but its just my opinion...you are free to follow your own... :)

good luck and god speed to all my readers ...!

A thing or two about 2010...!

so i'm writing again because this is supposed to be the first post of the year 2011 and prominently because my brother reminded me that i used to have a running blog once. So here i go one more time and this time 100% alcohol free ..

so the year just went by like any other year...and i don't know if there is something out of the ordinary about it that i should write here, but i'll figure out as i make my way through the blog, so this my friends is 100% spontaneous...

well to say the least, the year 2010 has really been an year of enlightment for me, and when i say "enlightment" i dont mean that i know my purpose of life and all that sort of b.s ...enlightment here means a sense of knowing how people are, and how you ought to be in this world, how what goes around comes back around and most importantly your mom is always right...ALWAYS....!

well i wont discuss about anyone in specific because that would be too "cheap" on my part...but anyways people who know me better would be able to figure out my shit one way or another ...

to start with the year that went by has brought in front the faces of many of my friends...while some of them proved to be brothers, great friends and good friends, the others just proved what they really are and how in seconds they would forget everything that you ever did for them and switch sides just like that....and how these "friends" fake their gratitude and then use you to an extent that you almost start feeling that you are wanted and then they go ahead stab a couple of forks on your back and then act like nothing ever happened and it was all your screw up at the first place...

well to all those people who were true to the trust i bestowed on them; i might fool around with everyone of you but truly and sincerely i respect you all from the bottom of my heart for being so nice to me...wherever you are and wherever you might go and whatever shit you are in and no matter how deep you're stuck, remember that the time isn't static, you all are good people and good things would always come to you...! well the timing might suck sometimes but it would make sense eventually when everything fits in...!

and for those who fall in the other classification, i dont have much to say but just remember that i would keep in mind how i was treated, i would keep in mind how many times you stabbed my back and i wont ever forget what you did to me...nor would "your" beloved almighty who sees all ...!

since being just and fair is what i do best , i wont spare myself the liberty of not discussing some of my cons over the last year here...

well to start with, for a major part of 2010 i was a pessimist, i worried too much, i cared less about people who cared about me and i even took them for granted at times, broke a heart which i'm still trying to make whole again, put myself on the line for people who dint deserve it, and treated people who loved me like dirt...

i know a sorry isn't good enough but i really realize what all i did was wrong, because it all has came back to me and i have learnt my lesson...one thing i'm still not, is a perfect 10 ...but many thanks for having put with all my nonsense stuff all this time you guys are the best...and i wont forget you ever...!

in many ways i am thankful for all the things that happened to me in 2010 good or bad, while good things boosted my morale , the bad things made me a stronger and wiser person individually, and one thing that i've learnt is that time goes by really fast and it doesnt really care if you want it to stop and listen to all your bickering complaints about life... one way or another, you have move on ...!

well finally , to put a stop to your reading disaster i would just like state "whatever you decide to be in life, its imperative that you are a good human being first..!" or like i always say ..."be good ;)"

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